Ewgh

Last night at 2:45am I woke up to something crawling through my hair. I was having a great sleep, and suddenly I started to become aware of my bangs being pulled and played with. Once I actually woke up, I knew there was in fact something in my bangs. I could feel the weight of it on my pillow, and feel it's claws, paws, snout,  antennae, or whatever it had, going through my hair. I couldn't make out what it was, I couldn't tell what exactly was going through my hair, but something was. I ran my fingers all over my hair frantically in a panic and sat up and woke up Kyle. As I sat up I could hear something scurry away. "KYLE SOMETHINGS CRAWLING IN MY HAIR!" I did not sleep for an hour after that, and the rest of my sleep was awful because I felt itchy and scared of something crawling all over me. I dont know what it was. But I am scared of the bed now.

Shanny

 

 Today we received a phone call that Shanny had passed away. Shanny had been one of the families puppies ever since he (Shanny) was born. He recently began suffering from heart problems that are common in Boxers. I feel so sad to lose this member of our family. He was a sweet puppy. He weighed almost as much as me and he loved to lay on me (and other people) and squish me. His ears were soft and his nose was dry, his fur was pretty like an orange pumpkin. He pouted when you didn't give him the scratches he wanted, he kissed you when you were sad, and he snuggled you when you were cold. The first thing Kyle asked me after we heard the news was if we could say a prayer for Shanny. So, we got on our knees and prayed to Heavenly Father about how thankful we are to have had Shanny in our lives, and we are thankful that he is in Heaven with his brother Riley and his mom Sadie, and that he isn't in pain any longer. Rest in peace Shanny Boy, we will see you in heaven one day (:

Kyle Bear

I already wrote a quick post about Kyle's homecoming from Afghanistan. But, looking at the pictures again tonight, especially this one, made me want to write a post just about Kyle. This picture was taken at his homecoming. The Marines marched in in alphabetical order, and he ended up stopping right in front of me. The Marines all had to stand there until all of them had gotten off the bus and into the gym, it took about 3 or 5 minutes. In that time, everyone just stood there, Marines and Family alike. And my sweet husband was dead center in front of me. So close yet so far away! All I wanted to do was run up and hug him. If we could've gotten a picture of my face, I would have had just as big a smile on as he does. I hadn't seen him in seven long months. There were times when that deployment felt so easy, and like it would be over tomorrow. Other times it was the hardest thing I ever had to do, and I just felt like sleeping until it was over because the days dragged on and on. In the end, every day of it always comes out to be worth it. We have made it through so much together. A long distance relationship for four years - finishing high school, boot camp, school of infantry, Iraq, Afghanistan....There might have been fights some days, or hard times, times when we both just felt so tired - but through it all I have learned so many very important lessons. Here are a few I would like to share, which I may not be perfect at, but I still try my best every day.

1. Pray

2. Always be nicer than you think you should be.
3. Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.
4. Forgive and forget.
5. Remember, it's just money.
6. Forget yourself. Be selfless.
7. Serve others. Be helpful.
8. Always say you're sorry, even if you don't think you're the one who needs to apologize.
9. Speak kindly.
10. Always tell the one you love, that you love them, every chance you get.
Kyle,
You are so sweet. Despite all the hard points, we did make it through another deployment - we can make it through anything. You are the love of my life, and I am so thankful to our Heavenly Father for putting us in each others lives and helping us make our relationship work. Handsome, considerate, funny, caring, talented, dedicated, sweet, sweet, sweet, sweet, Kyle Bear - I will never stop loving you.

Christmas is almost here!

 

We got our tree the other day! It's about 3 feet tall, but I think it is so pretty. I love to have the Christmas tree lights on when it gets darker and it looks so pretty and peaceful. 

We don't have a star or an angel that goes on top of our tree yet. Probably wont invest in such an item for quite a while until we actually have a house and are all settled in. So rather than spending 20 dollars on one we just put a little bow around the top. I think it's cute!

 We got each other 3 presents each, all for under 100 dollars! We didn't want to spend alot of money. Next week we are going to get my dad a few things since he is going to be coming down here for Christmas.

Tonight we are going to a friends house from church for dinner. Tomorrow is the Relief Society Christmas Party that I am singing at! I am looking forward to being able to sing.

When will we get a tree!?

The past 3 or 4 days we make plans to get a Christmas Tree but something keeps coming up and taking up our time. Last night it was shopping. Kyle had to buy a pair of dress blues for an upcoming event. They gave us no notice at all. He needs them to be cleaned, and tailored by Tuesday. We bought them at the PX on base, and they don't have a seamstress on the weekends so it wasn't going to be ready until Wednesday. But, out of the kindness of their hearts they bumped it up to Monday after 4pm. The event he has to wear them to is on the 8th. It's crazy how they tell you out of the blue that you need a completley new uniform in less than a week. There is a lot of extra stuff that goes into getting these uniforms ready and they have to look perfect for inspection. It coasted us about $400.00 dollars, which was $400.00 dollars we didn't plan on spending, so it was pretty disappointing. He looks nice in them though. His waist is a size 34, and can sometimes fit even smaller sizes, but he ended up having to get a 38 because his thighs are so big, and they are going to tailor them.

Yesterday I went to the doctor and peed in a cup, and they confirmed that I am pregnant. She told me that I was roughly 4 weeks and 6 days, which means today I am 'roughly' 5 weeks along! I will be going to the doctor again in a week or so to get some other tests done to make sure everything is okay. We can get our first ultra sound at 8-10 weeks. I was looking at a calender yesterday and realized how soon that is!! I am very excited. I am also very very tired. Tiredness is what I feel most. Last night I fell asleep on the couch around 7pm while Kyle was playing Call of Duty. (Black Ops - that he just bought. It was supposed to be one of his Christmas presents but he needed it now...) I woke up around 10pm to Kyle carrying me to bed and putting the covers on me and then he laid next to me and we went to sleep. How sweet! He is a sweetie.


It is really cold here and our heat doesn't seem to be working, so our apartment feels like an ice box. Yesterday I make cookies just so I could turn the oven on and see if the house would warm up a bit. I wish I had my bearspaw boots here.

Happy News!

Hello dear world. It has gotten cold in North Carolina, which I didn't think was possible. I have the heat on, but for some reason it feels like more air conditioning. Maybe it's not working. Kyle and I have recently returned home from a 3 week trip to Michigan, where we spent time with his family and puppies! It was so nice to see everyone and have a relaxing break. But, since being home from Michigan, some great things have been happening in our lives!

Kyle has applied to the University Of Calgary for accounting! We are both so excited, so soon we will be getting his acceptance letter in the mail. (Or rejection letter) But, I'm pretty sure it will be a letter of acceptance. This is exciting as can be. I am so proud of K Bear for being so hard working and being prepared. He also applied to take some courses offered by the USMC. They are kind of like refresher courses of everything you learned in High School. Unfortunately, he has been denied for scoring too high on the test. Interesting.

On November 30th, we found out that I am pregnant! We are so happy and so excited. Because of my miscarriage I am trying to stay somewhat calm and relaxed until the baby makes it out of the first trimester, and then I will really jump for joy. But, I have been jumping for joy already! I can not really contain my happiness. I have always had this prayer in my heart, but since November 1st, I prayed out loud to Heavenly Father every day. I asked him to bless our family with a baby, and he has! I am so thankful that prayers are heard, and that they are answered. All that is asked of us is to do our best, and Heavenly Father does take care of the rest.

Time has been going by so fast. Kyle has applied for the Early Out Program. If he is approved, we will be out of the Marine Corps by March (hopefully) instead of June. Either way, the time is close for us to start our loooong drive to Calgary. I am starting to wonder what will become of all our stuff and things. How are we going to get all of this to Calgary? I guess a lot of it will have to be sold or given away, and we will take what we can. And that is fine with me, because I am just happy to be going to Canada! My parents are the best in the entire world and are going to let us stay with them until we can get settled. It will be a BIG help since Kyle will be in school, and I will be looking for a job eventually. Kyle and I are both very pleased and excited that we have finally decided on a place to live. Calgary will be great! Eventually we plan on moving to a smaller place around Calgary, maybe Airdrie. I am so excited to be back home with my awesome family! Kyle has only seen my siblings a few times, so I am really happy that everyone will finally be able to get to know each other a little better. My family is the best, everyone is always willing to help, everyone is (usually) always really happy and kind to one another, I am so excited to have our baby in Calgary and sweet little James can be his bestest friend! Yippiieeee! Life is great.